baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! :(

so i've been privating my blog. i dont knw how i felt nowadays. it seems like i've confused my own feelings. its been almost every day i text him. and i find it relaxing textin w you. but emmirul tetap adhe di hatiy no matter wht .. sometimes i felt like its nort him who im waiting fr, but its him. its emmirul. i effingly miss emmirul alot. texting him, he sending me bck home, chatting, otp, and now, i dint saw all tt anymore. who ruined all tt? me. me, i ruined all tt, i dint cherish him at all lst yr. all i did is taking thngs fr graunted. i was sec 2 and tt time im still playing ard fool people. yes i knw my own behaviour, but i decided to change cause i relise it ths yr. i learn my mistakes. i'll regret and lose everythng i own like now :( i jst wish i could go bck in time and make ths rite. i made a bigest mistakes of all! urrqqh! kadang kadang org ituh brguna tetapi kytee tidak sedar. and now i felt so stupid. i rase, urqqh, idk! he met ths girl, mard, and, and, myb its to late .. or myb nort .. i jst thnk he needs time to thnk. hmmphh! and nw, i've been texting ths boy, hmm, stakat nark hlngkn kesuniyan dariy phone trdiam gytuh brabok. yg phone niy, tarq berbunyi, it felt soo sunyi .. kalau phone bunyi slalu kn best? adhe jgk org nark bbl dgn .. but all i want is emmirul to text. hmmphh! somebody to accompany .. but sometimes, bile i nark text emmirul, he's kind of busy, sometime like tt, and whn he's texting me, i find it, tarq tepat, tarq tepat .. hhmmmm! but whtever it is, i make thngs sort out, and i jst want emmirul to make me his nmbr 1 jst like old times .. :(